Lemon Drop Shot

How to drink a Lemon Drop:
1. Set the sugar cube on fire until it carmelizes
2. Wrap the carmelized sugar with the slice of lemon
3. Bite the pulp of the lemon with the sugar
4. Take the shot and drink it

Even though I couldn't drink it (still on my "no alcohol" period), both Ben and Glenn said it was pretty good. So I guess this is my next trial drink for myself after I get well.

Here's a song that I was listening as I went to sleep. I'm not coughing that much today, but I guess my body got used to the sleeping late cycle and now I'm almost completely wide awake.

trying to sleep... again

I was close to passing out at around 11pm... coughing is under control... fell asleep for about maybe an hour after I updated my blog... damn, it's now close to 4am and I can't sleep.

need to sleep... otherwise I won't get well...

More than words

"Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words"


Relaxing on a Friday afternoon...
With good friends
get unplugged...
kick back...

Sounds like what my coming weekend would be like. Except that I won't have that many friends to hang with me... everyone is gone somewhere...

In getting over this sickness...

The past few days I've had time to do a lot of thinking. I was coughing very violently, sustaining damages to my lungs and liver. Coughing blood at times, puking everything I took in at times, and can't find peaceful rest.... I was never this sick in my life. I thought... seriously, I was going to die.

Suddenly, the things that mattered to me didn't matter so much anymore. All the things are now seen with a different perspective. Decisions are made based on different criteria... because I might not be able to make the same mistake twice... it is a matter of life and death.

So now I realized the people who are really important in my heart. The passions that I really have toward my work but were stifled because of unnecessary insistence on certain issues and emotions. How life can be a waste when we let our emotions cloud our thinking. And what it means by drinking responsibly...

Now that I'm getting better (not 100% yet), I'm going to spend more time with the people that matter in my heart. More devotions on the call that God has for me at the work place. And more time alone with God. Here's a quote from Steve Jobs that really speaks my mind:

"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."

So now... a new journey begins...

Who's Syd's no. 5555th Visitor... could it be me?

4th night trying to sleep

I did sleep last night... for 16 hours, I might add. But now I'm awake again because of the cough. The difference last night? Nyquil.... but it knocked me out and I missed work again.

So tonight, after my second visit to the doctor, I'm going to sleep without additional aid... so far... not good...

Third night trying to sleep

I hate being sick...
I cough all the time, feel dizzy all the time, have no voice, have no strength, have no attention span, feel out of control... and above all, feel lonely... even though this is intentional since I don't want to pass my germs to anyone that's close to me or I care for.

Sighs... this is my third night trying to sleep. I hope I will be able to sleep.

Got really sick...

I took today off because I was coughing through most of the night last night. I tried to get to bed at 6pm but didn't manage to fall asleep until 6am... all due to a persistent cough.

The cause for the extended cold is due to the lobster and the alcohol that I had at my sister's wedding banquet. At least, that's what the doctor had told me. So until I get better, here's a list of things that I absolutely cannot touch:

1. Milk
2. Oranges (damn, just got them yesterday)
3. Chicken (there goes my chicken soup)
4. Spicy food (aw, man!)
5. Alcohol (what the... *&^%^%^$(*)&$@#!#@$)
6. Peanuts
7. Bananas

Thanks for all who prayed and is still praying for me. I hope I'll get well soon.

Love is Simple

Getting sick...

Thank you all for praying for me. Please add another item to the list...

I actually got sick and I can't miss work today to take a rest. And I just barely got off the phone and responded to the e-mails now.

Thanks again for everyone's support.

Prayer request

Dear all,

Please pray for me... so that I may be still, be quiet, to know God.
Please pray for me... so that I can mend the broken hearted
because God has and will mend mine.

I ask for patience.
I ask for favor.
I ask for miracles.

Please pray for my heart.
For all fruits and actions came from the very thoughts generated within.

Please pray for my readiness.
So when prompted, I may answer with gentleness and respect.

Please pray for me...

... these voices...

These voices kept on telling me...
That "she doesn't think about you."
"She has her heart sets to care for hers... much more than anyone else."
I said, "I understand, please spend more time with them."
But the result is a few nights spend in tears, a sense of feeling lonely, and a heart uncared for...

These voices kept on telling me...
"She hasn't checked your blog in more than a thousand years."
"She only cares for you when she needs care."
I said, "I don't mind, because I know and I accept her the way she is."
The result is still... a few nights spent in tears, a sense of feeling lonely, and a soul unattended for...

I'm sorry, I meant no pressure. You must have a million thoughts swirling in your head... wondering where your future lies. I wonder too... I have a zillion thoughts... about if I will see you happy for the rest of my life.

Now I'm sleepless...
Now I'm speechless...
An empty cell phone...
A lonely guitar...
A broken string...
A pair of washed out jeans next to the computer...
A heart wanting to love...
to a soul tethered to her past life...

... these voices...

05-08-2006

Today is a day to remember... why? Well...

My older sister Theresa got married!!! Since it was decided to not hold a wedding ceremony, we had a little get together at Howard's place tonight. The banquet will be on 5/21.

Now both of my sisters are married... when will it be my turn? Where is she? Anyways... I should be happy for my sister. Congratulations!!!

Universal City Walk + Midori Sushi + Mission Impossible III

Tonight is a full night of events... I rushed off to pick up Angie after work so that we can hopefully not be too late to get to Studio City for the "All you can eat" Sushi Bar at Midori Sushi restaurant (since Angie has been craving for sushi for so long). Surprisingly, the traffic wasn't that bad. Johnny and Glenn went ahead of time so that they can get seats for us since they don't take reservations. And it turned out that we all got there right around the same time.

No waiting!! Ya, thank you, Lord! There was a table of 4 left just for us. I didn't get a chance to take pics, but this restaurant is known for its value. We then decided to go to Universal City Walk and then watch the late night showing of Mission Impossible III. Full day of events... even though we were tired, it was a great time. Thanks, Angie, for your craving... hahaha.So where are you looking, Angie? Didn't you know I was taking your picture?

Ajisen Ramen

Tonight, I went to meet up with Jessie, whom I lost touch for about 8 years, to have dinner at Ajisen Ramen and go to Bally's to work out. For those of you who have a friendster account, she's on my friends list, cute, single, and I think... available.

I used to remember that there was always a line outside of this restaurant since it opened about a year ago in San Gabriel/Alhambra. Well, no line today! And the evaluation on the noodle? Hmmm... tastes good. Definitely will come back again in the future... but probably won't eat that much... so full...
This is Pork Cutlet Curry Ramen
And Jessie's Vegetable Ramen

New Phone Arrived!!!

Finally... and fortunately, the phone ordered from TigerDirect arrived one day ahead of schedule. This is the Motorola SLVR L7 unlocked from Europe. Probably from Italy... since it looked like Italian on all the documentations as well as the "Charging Battery" text on the display (I forgot what it was, since all text changed to English when I install my SIM card).

Being that this is an unlock phone and not a bundle service plan phone... it came pretty much "naked." I mean, there's no carrying case, car charger, stereo headpiece (for MP3), or protective sleeve. It did come with it's own charger with an adaptor for US recepticles. And it's good that the phone can be charged off of any computer's USB port.

I immediately uploaded some mp3 songs to it to hear how it sounds from the built in speakers... wow!!! Sounds good!!!

After the phone was fully charged, I transferred the music and photo files from my old phone to the new one via bluetooth. And then, I copied some of the music files to my co-worker's RAZR phone via bluetooth. Hehe... now I have 1Gig of memory that I can play around with on this phone. And this can double up as an MP3 player now when I go work out. Cool!

New toy: 1Gig MicroSD card

Look how small this is!!! After making the mistake of getting a 1 Gig Mini SD card, I couldn't forgive myself and rushed to Fry's to get the right one... a micro SD. This is in anticipation of my new phone which will arrive either this Thursday or Friday.

The past 3 weeks...

For the past 3 weeks, my boss has been away from office on tour in Europe. So in the office, everyone is more relaxed... but that will come to an end very shortly...

He's coming back on Friday!!!

I guess I should get ready soon... not that I've been slacking off or anything. It's just that my boss is kind of paranoid about many things.

What I did learn was ways to motivate myself each morning to get things done. Scheduling things and follow through with them. Usually I would get things done before noon time and then I can research and plan for tomorrow's activities. It's quite relaxing actually... one thing I really need to get done though... GET TO WORK ON TIME!!!

This is the single biggest fault or defect that I have since the second month of me working here. When I'm out on business trip, I usually get up a lot earlier than I need to. So this is a sign that my lifestyle needs some adjustments.

So the goal... GET TO WORK ON TIME!!! Repeat, Donald, repeat...

Food poisoned

Arrrrrgggghhh....

It must be the egg.... it must be the egg... or was it the soup... or the BBQ...? Anyways, I got food poisoned and I threw up everything I ate today. Nothing seemed to want to stay in my stomach. I took two hours off to go home early and I can feel sudden cold and hot attacks on my body.

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