A day of fullness... but why can't I sleep?

Today I woke up extra early so I can get to work an hour early and join the company prayer meeting. The day started out with power and it felt very full. After work, I went to the church prayer meeting. It was very powerful. God was with me the entire day and evening. I felt very fulfilled.

However, after I got home from prayer meeting, I turned on the TV and begin looking through my older files on my computer... I think these were not so good. Because the result is that now I can't sleep. My mind if full of the things in the past and I can't seem to shake it off. I haven't watched TV for such a long time... and I discovered that it has a magical power of sucking me in to the point that I didn't want to turn it off. I was admiring the picture quality and, I guess, was thinking that I deserve a little relaxation time. But it did not relax me... it consumed me.

Now it's past 1am. And I planned to get up at 6:30am. A part of me is excited... a part of me is perplexed... about why I didn't make wiser choices.

Such is the struggle I feel... I pray that God will let me enter into His rest so I can get enough sleep for yet another battle the coming day.